I meditate to be present and embodied. I meditate because it helps me to return to the moment when outside influences pull my attention, or I become overwhelmed by emotions or events. I meditate to have an intimate understanding and knowing of myself on subtle levels.
Meditation allows me to having choices while living.
It gives me pause, centering, grounding, and presence. I feel peaceful in my life when I practice.
I meditate because it gives me a helpful perspective on things that have happened in the past and the things that I fear or anticipate happening in the future. It helps me to be in the present with a playful, amused, attitude that can handle challenges with grace most of the time.
I meditate to have good boundaries.
I meditate to feel safe in my environment and to feel that I am a part of the world around me while still having my boundaries.
I meditate to build discipline, which in turn builds my self-esteem and confidence.
I choose a form of meditation that utilizes a map of the energy field and the seven centered chakra system. I choose this system because these techniques help me better than any other practice I have attempted, and I have tried a lot. I chose this form because it improves and encourages me being able to get my own answers, it honors my body, and enhances my own intuitive abilities.
The form of meditation I choose allows me to experience my life with all my emotions and to be able to see the events of my life through a neutral lens when I choose, which means I don’t have to get caught in my emotions, I can move through them, or allow them to move through me. I don’t get caught in the future, in the past, or in others.
I meditate to be my most authentic, individualized, self in a world that does it’s best to make us like everyone else.
It is not an easy path to begin or stay with, but the more I choose it, the more I see the results of why I choose again and again.
All around me are reasons to not choose this path but within me are the reasons I do.
I hold a monthly group meditation. At the beginning of each meditation, I ask the group to go within or to turn their attention to the inside and check in with their body. We might spend some time scanning or noticing different parts and how they interact with the environment. For example, I might say, “Notice the pressure of your feet on the floor.”
Always, I say, “Now say hello to your body and see if you get a response back.”
In general, we spend a lot of time in our minds, meaning we think a lot. When you check in with your body, you start to notice different, sometimes new things. Even though I have spent a lot of time, doing different techniques, to be more present with my body. I fall into this trap too.
For over a year I have had difficulty with a shoulder, which means it hurts sometimes and along with that hurt, it doesn’t move quite the way it needs to. This limitation has led to other things in my body bothering me. Now, I’m trained in injury treatment, so my mind got busy.
I did self-treatment with a ball and S-hook. I heated and iced it. I did exploratory movement. I stretched it as much as I could. To my surprise, I started noticing how naturally I was adapting daily activities to compensate. I found myself in a frustrating wave of improvement and detriment. Overall though, it was showing some improvement in a way that was encouraging, so I kept at it.
I realized, though that I needed help. I went to other practitioners. I was pretty sure I knew what was wrong and with varying levels of success, I did get help. Things got even better but I was still frustrated because I couldn’t find someone who was able to effectively do what I knew I needed and meet the frequency that I knew I needed.
During a monthly massage with an amazing, nurturing, and skilled practitioner she asked if I wanted some work to my shoulder and I confessed that I knew I needed it, but I really came to her because her work reminded me of why I wanted to be a massage therapist. My heart was yearning for nurturing touch that spoke to my soul and told me I was okay; bum shoulder and all. But yes, please, stick your fingers in my armpit. As she did, I told her what I thought I needed and what I had done and what wasn’t working. There were tears in my eyes.
She suggested trying out a lot of different therapists to see what each would do, how they would approach the situation and as an added benefit it would give me a great referral base for clients if I needed to refer out. It’s actually a great idea for a therapist to do and it’s one I may do soon, but not while my shoulder hurts.
As I let the suggestion roll through my mind, my body started to speak. I asked it what was up, and I felt fear. I felt vulnerable. I realized that my body didn’t want to endure a lot of different touch that it was uncertain about. It didn’t want me to gamble on this. My body needed more than anything to feel safe and nurtured. My nervous system needed support and it needed it something other than direct, ‘feel good pain’ to be whole again.
I reached out to a friend and got a referral to someone who did work like that. Someone who probably wasn’t going to stick her fingers in my armpit no matter how much I begged and wanted but someone who would hold the gentle and slow space to allow my nervous system to let go of the fear and the guarding. I made an appointment and my shoulder started to improve before I saw her as other parts of my body began to respond and thaw with some gentle, curious, exploratory movement I began to allow instead of demand. My body was starting to trust me more.
I saw this new person for the first time today and she held me softly and gently, but securely, while she moved my arm and did other things. She invited me to notice my body both with her touch and verbally. My body trusts me a bit more because I finally listened. My shoulder feels more a part of me. The whole side of my body feels integrated, elongated, and expanded.
Tonight, I was able to reach behind my back and take my bra off with both arms for the first time in months. It’s not fixed, it’s not perfect, it is so much better. I feel throughout my body some new sense of hope and connection, it’s like rebuilding a bridge between parts of myself. Another practitioner once told me that I needed to welcome back in wounded parts of myself and this was a version of that. I was supported in that welcoming, in becoming whole. I share that story a lot with my clients in hope that it will spark something in them to be kinder, more gentle, and welcoming to the disparaged parts of themselves.
My mind was wrong about what I needed. I had been turning in for so long to what my mind thought that it drowned out the sound of my body and what it truly needed.
I believe that is true for a lot of my clients as well. We live in a world that likes to solve problems and when our bodies offer up pain and dysfunction, it’s a problem, so we look for a fix, something that makes sense, something our mind says sounds logical, or right. But the truth is that can bypass the wisdom of our body and result in maintaining disconnection. It’s like putting all the blame on a child that is getting in trouble and not addressing the family dynamic that feeds into it.
Years ago, a practitioner changed my life when he said, “I think you know your body best.”
It’s taken all those years, a lot of work on my part, and some great patience and grace from a few others, for me to realize our minds don’t know, our bodies do, and most of us are listening to our minds and we must learn to attend to our bodies in a new way so that we can hear them again.
One of the questions I have been asked recently is what does Psychic mean?
It’s a fair question. I spent last year in deep study in a mentorship course called the Psychic Mastery Program and that certificate in my office sure gets a lot of attention.
When you see the word psychic, what do you think? Do you conjure up images of a veiled woman peering into a crystal ball and mysteriously telling you the initials of the person you are supposed to marry? Well, maybe. But that isn’t me.
Psychic actually means ‘of the soul.’ We each have the ability to know and communicate with our own soul. We access information from our souls through our intuition. Someone who is psychic simply has a good relationship with his or her own intuitive ability.
The thing about intuition though is you may or may not know how you get your intuitive information. You may see pictures or colors in your head, hear words or sounds, smell things that others don’t, or you might be able to get a sense of what someone else is feeling, or what a room ‘feels’ like. You may just even know something. Ever had that experience? You don’t know how you know, you just do? Maybe you think of someone right before they call, or before you run into them at the grocery store?
The best way to get to know your own style and to enhance your intuitive, or psychic, abilities is to learn to meditate using a format that allows space for you to get information. And you need to start paying attention to how it comes and even how you speak about it because the words you use to describe your intuition can tell you a lot.
If you are interested in learning how, or want to know more about:
Your own intuitive style
Your energetic anatomy
Grounding, earth and cosmic energies and how to use them
Consciously connecting to your energy to improve your ability with establishing and maintaining boundaries with others
We meet for four weeks for an hour each Wednesday evening at 6:00 to learn and practice. Plus, you receive a booklet outlining all we learn, examples of meditations, and it gives you an easy plan to establish your own meditation practice. Check out my Classes and Workshops page to see when the next one is scheduled.